America’s Got Talent judge Simon Cowell got candid about the exponential impact his son has on his life, especially after losing his mother. On the latest June 10 episode of The Diary of a CEO podcast, Cowell shares about his heartbreaking loss and how his son’s birth was the silver lining at the time.
When asked if his son, Eric, somehow saved him from his “downward spiral” after losing his mother back in July 2015, Cowell succinctly said:
“Without question.”
Simon Cowell’s son is now 10 years old, whom he shares with fiancée Lauren Silverman. The couple welcomed their son on Valentine’s Day on February 14, 2014.
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It’s not the first time that Cowell has been vocal about his son saving him from a downward spiral. He told The Sun in 2022:
“Before Eric, my life was 99 percent work. I was obsessed with it. Now Eric is around, I don’t work through the night anymore. If he hadn’t come along, God knows what would have happened.”
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Simon Cowell opened up about his mother’s death and the darkest period of his life
The TV personality was candid about the “darkest period” of his life after both his parents died, his father in 1999 and his mother in 2015. On the same podcast episode, he mentioned being on a “downward spiral” and noted:
“I lost everyone, you know. I’ve lost my parents. It’s finality now. What I said about the material things I’ve got, everything just meant nothing at that point.”
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His parents’ death took a serious toll on his mental health and the lifestyle choices he’s made, the TV personality revealed. At one point, Simon Cowell decided to become a “vampire” about his professional life, working through until seven or eight in the morning. He admitted that he was looking for the “distraction” because of the loss he’s experienced.
Simon Cowell noted:
“I would wake up at 2:00 or 3:00 in the afternoon and I actually got addicted to that kind of lifestyle. I just loved the intensity.”
While being a workaholic has given him success, happiness was still something out of reach for the TV personality. He said:
“And it was, I’m just going to be a ridiculous workaholic, and I was very successful but I wasn’t happy, I really, really wasn’t happy.”
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Recalling the hardest part of that period in his life, Cowell mentioned that it was being seen by endless people on television where he had to put on pretenses for the audience while he was “dying inside.” He said:
“I felt like. A clown because I’m dying inside, and yet I’ve still got to do what I’m being paid to do as best as I could. I’d put on a ton of weight, I was eating junk. If I had got hit by a bus the following day, I’d be dead, but I wasn’t worried about anything like that.”
Thankfully for Simon Cowell, the news of her fiancée’s pregnancy and the subsequent birth of his now 10-year-old son, Eric, snapped him out of his gray and workaholic days.
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