"Am I a loser?": N3on says he cried while praying, insinuates recent streams did not meet expectations while announcing budget issues

Kick star N3on shared an emotional moment on his broadcast on December 12, 2024, while explaining that he had spent $200K on five international IRL streams. The content creator showed his vulnerable side on camera while talking about budgeting for his streams in the Caribbean and Central America.

For context, N3on has been traveling outside the US for several days, visiting countries like Colombia and Mexico. Recently, he was praised by viewers for giving away presents at a Jamaican orphanage.

However, in his latest broadcast, the streamer revealed that he broke down and cried while praying earlier in the day. He then asked his audience if that made him a loser.

"Can I just be honest? On god, when I was praying, I cried today, bro. I cried, I cried to god, bro. Because I just want to be someone that I am not right now, bro. Don't laugh at me, I am just being honest. Wait, chat am I a loser? On my life I did, I don't give a f**k, bro."

He thanked his supporters for sticking with him through thick and thin:

"I know I can do it, man, I know I can f**king do it, bro. I am yapping, alright? I just want to say bro, the fact that you all are still here sticking with me this far, literally just see how fast this f**king chat goes, man. It just makes me realize what I really can be. There is a lot of sh*t holding me back, bro. There is a list."

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N3on says he sent everyone home to cut costs for his overseas IRL Kick streams

N3on is primarily known for his IRL streams and has been creating content worldwide for some time now. Despite facing allegations of view-botting, his expectations for his recent broadcasts were higher than the reality.

In his most recent stream, the internet personality thanked everyone who accompanied him to create content but hinted that the streams hadn't met his hopes:

"I want to thank everyone for coming out on this trip, everyone took time out of their day, time out of their families to come on this trip with me, man. And I envisioned it to be something insane, but it's just not what it came out to be, you know?"

N3on admitted that while some parts of his streams were good, the overall cost was becoming too high, leading him to send some people home to reduce expenses:

"I think still some content has been good, but yeah man, it's been getting really f**king expensive. We've done five streams and we have spent like f**king $200K. So we got to cut the cost down, there's too many people. And, um, it's just a lot, so."

In related news, N3on recently criticized female streamers on Kick, alleging that they have fake relationships with the platform's staff to gain advantages.