#3. Lana Suffered From Eating Disorders
The painful toll of never being able to please her Russian instructors took a toll on the young C.J. Perry. Lana began suffering from body dysmorphia and at 14 years old, started meticulously counting every calorie she ate.
Things became so bad for Lana that she began limiting herself to only 400 calories a day and developed bulimia, an eating disorder characterized by self-induced vomiting. She was hospitalized for the disorder at 17.
Lana began hating herself and started writing notes to express her hatred,
"I would literally write myself hate notes and be like, 'I'm a fat cow. Don't eat until you reach this. You're stupid. You're dumb.' I would put hate notes in this little thing next to my bed and I would put all those notes and I just hated myself because that is what that world, and that society created. They always said, 'You are dumb. You are ugly. You are stupid. You're fat.'"
Lana started to weigh herself obsessively and her disorder progressed to the point that she would see herself only as overweight, especially when looking in the mirror.
Things started to get better for Lana once she returned to the United States at 18. After returning to a normal diet, she gained 30 pounds. Her disorder; however, reared its ugly head, after she was accepted to a dance program at Florida State University and told to drop weight. Lana returned to bulimia, something she believes intensified due to stress.
The condition didn't last long, this time. Lana was able to find an excellent therapist, who helped her retrain her thoughts and conquer her eating disorders. She has not suffered from them since.